| Sunday, May 14th, 2006 ~ 3:19 AM |
Watched--> Memoirs of a Geisha - very good flick
Listened--> Ben Folds Rockin' the Suburbs - I love the piano in every song...
Reading--> The Things They Carried Tim O'Brien - I love this book
Don't pee your pants, but, to my loyal readers out there, I have finally have had the time to update this baby a little bit.
I'm so glad that this semester is finally over... I can't remember ever being so busy all the time. However, I'll reflect more on that in another entry..
It's been a full week into summer now. So far, this summer has been surreal... Things are changing that I don't want changed.. Things are happening that I have no control over.. I've upset people I never wanted to upset.. I've been getting emotional about crap (ya, me.. emotional).. I just don't know how to handle this. I just feel like my world is breaking up around me. I feel so lost.. I feel so alone through this..
In about six days from now, I'll be moved into a new city.. with new people.. in my new home. I should be excited, but I have a sense of dread in stomach. I'm scared... I don't know what to expect. It helps a little knowing I have a roommate that's been there before. That might make this a little easier.
I know this will be a good experience for me. I will be learning a lot, and I'm excited to see what I'll actually be working on. I'll finally get a taste of what my future career might be like... and that in itself is exciting and fun. And I know that once I start getting into my project, things will get better. But, until then, I can't help but worry...
[I'm sorry if I've let you down and hurt you.. I just ask that you try to understand what I'm going through. I really need you there for me now...]
So, after 2 months without updating, I update with a downer of an entry. I apologize for that. It just helps getting my thoughts out there on paper.. or computer screen.. I will update again in 8 days about my first day. I know that everything will be okay then, and I'll make it a happier entry. My last week begins.. No Day, But Today..
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Kyle-->Being scared about leaving and going to a new place is completely normal, man. Don't worry that you're feeling scared and not excited. That's normal! I mean, it really is scary... it's going to force you really far out of your comfort zone to be doing something so unknown, but I know that you're going to do well.
I know it doesn't probably mean a whole lot, man, but I'll be praying for you, ok? I know you can do this, and I have confidence that it will all work out. Hang in there, man!
Tracie--> How depressing. I can't even make a joke out of anything in this entry. It's horrible. What am I supposed to do? I guess I'll just wait for your next one and hope that I can make a joke out of something. Until then, I'm glad your work is going well. Make it a happy one!
J.L.--> Hey man. I hear ya about the whole uncontrollable changes. They blow big time. I hope your internship is going well. What have you been doing there? Well chat with ya l8er.
